Tuesday, October 23, 2007

I'm a little bit Jaded

So this new girl and I aren't going to work out.  I've tried to keep it on a fun level but she keeps finding ways to delve in to the serious, serious side of relationships - and I can't take that right now.
 
I considered why after a throughly rousing delta-9-tetrahydrocannabinol filled evening.
 
I'm just not quite over my last "relationship."
 
That little bitch was a doozy.  I'm not sure how she managed it, but she got me extremely, extremely caught up in her.  Bad.  And it all ended with me catching her cheating on me in a nearby club by (almost) complete accident.
 
I don't think that really bothered me so much as her repeated protests that "we were never really together anyway.  We're just friends."  This girl constantly told me she wanted me all to herself and led me to believe that we were, in fact, "together."
 
But it was all games with this one.  She's the first (and only) girl I've ever (and will ever) said "I love you" to without meaning it at all.  I used it the same way she did - as a game.  I got so wrapped up in her that I PLAYED her sadistic, psychotic bitch game.
 
Basically, my most recent memory of relationships involves something that was technically non-existent and so filled with hocus bullshit lies it would make your head spin.
 
So sorry Current Girl.  I can't do this right now.

6 comments:

Sara Sue said...

What's your relationship with your mother like?

Parad0x said...

Depends on what you mean. Overall, great. We live a few towns apart so I see her a few times a week and every weekend. Lately, a bit strained. She's stressed and I'm stressed thanks to so many things.

You're making me want to read through my post to see if I can profile myself somehow but I find myself lacking the will to do so.

:)

Mike said...

You got the rest of your life to worry about relationships. Go buy a Thai hooker. You'll thank me in the morning.

Parad0x said...

Fuck it, Palmela and her sisters are free. I'm right there with ya Mike - relationships can come some other time.

Counsellor in Cultivation said...

happy happy birthday!!!! smoke one for me... my b-day is this w/e!!! yay for october!

Parad0x said...

Thanks CiC! We're having a huge party this weekend - last year my buddy and I showed up as the ambiguously gay duo. My other buddy (part arabic guy) dressed up as a terrorist. Good times were had. Judging by the rest of that evening, you women are attracted to guys pretending to be gay. Maybe we were a little too good at it?

That's a weird thought.

My point is, I'll have a brew for ya! Happy Birthday to you!